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June 21st, 2009
07:52 am - social diva
why doesn't my mac spell check check the subject line?
Anywho... have been going out damn near every night this week. Thursday dancing, Friday to a bon fire (which ella totally loved) and yesterday to a festival with Gareth and Ella.
For some reason I've woken up before both of them :) kinda nice actually...
We've purchased a vehicle, and Gareth is now working. 2 things which have totally added to our level of freedom :) It's helpful on the stress levels to not have to worry about finances :)
Just thought I'd add that...
Hope everyone has a good weekend.
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June 9th, 2009
09:41 pm - phew...
I haven't been posting as much as normal as of late. Things have been kinda up and down. I need to do more for myself. I've been feeling kinda self conscious and my self esteem has taken a kick to the pants. Doing more for myself would fix this :) Yoga... Running... something just focusing on me :) We're getting a car soon and then I'll be able to go where I want and do what I want. I've been feeling random jealousy as of late that is created by the above. It's so weird cause I've never been a jealous person. I've never let this affect me. I will really enjoy not being the only one working. It's a lot of stress to support a family all by yourself. All this in one paragraph??? hehe...
Thursday morning I'm going for Acupuncture and Gareth is going to get his swimmers checked. We have been trying for 2 years and except for one miscarriage/chemical pregnancy, there has been nothing. We want babies really badly, and I think this is making me feel slightly inadequate.
I've been clinging to old friendships and wondering to myself who my real friends are. Who my best friend is. I don't really have a girlfriend that I talk to and tell all my secrets. Don't have that person (aside from Gareth) that I can just hang out with and do nothing. Being a parent has changed my life and these things don't really matter to me as much anymore. Or at least I thought they didn't till Gareth mentioned how I didn't mind being without others and that he had to push me out the door to get me to go out at times.
I feel like I'm going to be stuck in my job forever if I don't make a change, if I don't head in the direction of education that I know is necessary to live my life the way I know I need to in order to feel fulfilled. Don't get me wrong, I love my family, love being a mother and a wife... but I need things for me also.
I feel better just from getting that off my chest....
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April 2nd, 2009
09:59 am - Spring is in the air
I'm beginning to feel rejuvenated now that spring has sprung. The possibilities of staying in Regina really aren't that bad. I'm beginning to understand more and more that my life is whatever my mind makes of it.
I'm not sure I want to continue with the doula-ing. At least not in the hospital setting anyways. The list of interventions that occurs here is ridiculous.
If we stay in Regina I'm going to take a few mandarin classes at the University. At least if I do something I'm good at it will lead me in the right direction.
I would love to move to Vancouver also, so we'll see what happens. The prospects are a tad overwhelming I must admit. It's uber expensive and chances of me getting into the program are slim as only 10 people are allowed in a year. I know that everything worthwhile generally is quite difficult so we'll see what happens.
The midwifery thought was an afterthought after we knew we were leaving China anyways so I'm not sure if it's the right thing...
I'm almost 30 and still have no clue what I want to do. That's hilarious. At least I can say that I've lived a very exciting life thus far :)
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February 14th, 2009
10:49 am - 1st birth
Just got to attend my first birth... WOW!!!
Although I could sense the dr wasn't very doula friendly so I wasn't as hands on as I would have liked. He didn't support the perineum as well as I would have liked which resulted in a second degree tear. He also didn't recommend nursing to get the placenta to detach naturally. Perhaps he was just tired. He was a nice man. It's a learning curve and I'll have to get use to not everyone being as supportive as we would like.
The positive though... a beautiful 7lb 14 ounce boy hypnobirthed 100% natural. While there the nurse also told me that doula's are now allowed in triage. :) YAY!!! The rule still applies that there is only 1 person allowed in at once, but at least we can be a part of that too.
I can tell that I am now addicted to helping mama's. How amazing :)
All of the nurses were extremely helpful and very supportive of our role in the birthing area. I can not say enough for how amazing they all were.
What a lovely valentines so far :)
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December 17th, 2008
07:58 pm
I am very much looking forward to moving into our new place... it will be so nice to do yoga and meditation whenever we want and have the room to do it also.... oh.. how exciting :)
I miss having our own space.
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November 29th, 2008
08:53 am
http://singingyogi.livejournal.com/17526.html#comments
This is the first post I commented on of Gareth's entries. Our relationship can be tracked back to almost this moment :) hehe...
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November 23rd, 2008
07:58 pm - wow...
I haven't posted in forever.
Everything is going very well. I'm still working at thyme maternity and have my first doula client starting tomorrow :)
I should be assistant manager soon. There's no reason why I shouldn't get that gig. :)
We've finally sent off the application for immigration and it should take no more than 6 months.
We're hopefully moving into a house downtown in Feb. Can't wait.... We'll defo be in our own place in Feb... we'll see. Can't wait to have our own space.
How is everyone doing?
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October 2nd, 2008
06:41 pm
We're in Canada and loving it. We've gotten use to the time difference and ella has stopped waking up at 3 am :) YAY for that.
I already have a full time job and I start on Monday. I'm working at a high end maternity clothing store :) How appropriate, considering we want more babies as soon as possible.
We're going out tonight to have some food first then to the club... :) YAY!!!
Happy Birthday to me...
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September 10th, 2008
September 5th, 2008
05:02 pm - honest opinion...
I love singing but not in front of people... so what do I do? put it on youtube... hmmm... anyways, tell me honestly what you think... please be kind :)
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August 28th, 2008
August 23rd, 2008
09:12 pm
I'm a bit annoyed. A few people have suggested that Gareth was coming to Canada just because of me, and not because of any other reason. They honestly think I've manipulated him into leaving... I really need to stop caring what people think and just focus on what is right for us.
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05:36 pm - hehe..
I love the expression on her face in this picture.. she's like... what the...??
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August 17th, 2008
August 14th, 2008
08:11 pm
These next few years should be quite interesting. We're moving back in with my parents in order to save to buy a house. How mental... I haven't lived with my parents for nearly 10 years.
In other news I've spoken with one of the training doulas in regina and she is very excited about my ideas to start implementing abortion doulas. I feel very inspired.
About 5ish years ago I was annoyed with a girl I know and decided that it was up to me to show her I didn't agree with her choices. I posted photos of an aborted fetus on my journal as a way of hurting her. I do feel bad for doing this, in fact we probably could have been good friends... It was a horrible thing for me to do and I do regret it deeply. I'm very sorry for this. Just thought it was rather interesting that something I felt so strongly against has turned into something I am helping others get through.... maybe it's my karma.
In any case... I think both of these are very good choices...
I'm thinking it might be in my best interest to go into lactation support. It really interests me.
I've also thought about roller derby, which is totally and completely not related to anything previously mentioned. Might be a good way to get out some aggression... or I could try sticking with yoga. Perhaps a better choice... :)
We booked our tickets today. I'm not telling anyone the dates though... we'll just show up at gabbo's one thursday :) hehe... muwahahahaha....
Hope everyone is well... xxx
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July 31st, 2008
08:41 pm
I'm in complete and utter shock today after the murder of the guy on the greyhound. My dear god...
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July 30th, 2008
04:04 pm
I've now got the contacts to train as a la leche lactation consultant once we get back to Regina. I'll be taking my doula training one step further to birth doula as well. And I know who to contact to sign up for my midwife when g and I have our next baby. Next one is at home :)
Everything is falling into place and I'm very excited.
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11:01 am
so the plan of action is... as soon as we get my passport back, as long as it's within the next few weeks, we'll be able to get all 3 of our tickets for under 1000 pounds. That's executive class as well.. :) woohoo....
As long as we get everything sorted we'll be flying into calgary on the 5th of october, staying in a hotel for one night so we can see everyone in calgary, then driving back the following day.
I'm so excited I could nearly pee... could also be that I've got the bladder of an 80 year old woman. YAY for childbirth.
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July 27th, 2008
05:05 pm
39 working days since I've sent off my passport... such a ball ache. Would likely ache more in the balls if I actually had some.
Have been taking vitamins and cod liver oil and feeling much better. Thanks zen monkey man. Could be the fact that the weather is really f'n hot.
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